Nurturing Side of LTRS

I never thought about LTRS that much and when I heard people talking about it, I dreaded the conversation. Sure when I was younger and I had a crush on a girl, I wanted to marry her. These days the word "marriage" brings up a feeling that I can't explain. I do know it's not a good one.

However tonight I can't sleep, I'm sore, I'm tired as f---, and mind is over blown on my purpose in life. I started thinking deeply. How when I was kid and sh-t was going to well I'd go my mother. I can't do that today, being a grown Man and all.

Then a light bulb pops up in my head, and I think, there is a benefit to LTRS like... marriages. Honestly when I hit around 19 or so, I stopped with the crushes and never felt anything strong for a woman, emotionally speaking I mean.

The guys I grew up with would be surprise. I often get "are you going to get married when your like, 40?" My mindset is starting to change and be more open. I can see how LTRS have a nurturing side. Having a lot of rapport and comfort with another can heal your wounds when you're with that person. Also this thing Women call "emotions" should have some effect in that equations, I'm just kidding, I guess guys feel that too but not as much compared to Women.

Well, I very much doubt you can find that nurturing side in a one night stand, escort, or even a f-buddy. I never been this worn out physically, mentally, and spiritually. It does have it's purposes, I learned a priceless and valuable quality of LTRS, the comfort and care of it's nurturing side. So, there is a reasons to get into LTRS, AH HA!